Thursday 21 July 2022

18th January 2017

What a different person, retired from ministry, is taking up this blog again. I look back at my previous entries and resonate strongly with the chair making episode, but feel not a flicker of connection with the former self who wrote about hearing God's voice.
After my Sabbatical I arrived back in the parish in time for the departure of my two colleagues, an NSM and a House for Duty. I still had an active retired priest and a reader to help across my three churches.
The following Summer my wife and I moved into the benefice vicarage. The winter of 2012 was severe and the beginning of 2013 saw a foot of snow lying on the ground in the run up to Easter.

22nd July 2022

I broke off my blog five and a half years ago just before describing the events which led up to my retirement on health grounds. I still find it hard to write about the time which included a consistory court, and deteriorating mental health. This included a searching look at the basis of my previous life in trying to succeed as a Christian and as a minister. Gradually I found that I could no longer support the arguments I had frequently made in defence of the Christian faith. I discovered that I no longer accepted that the Bible is the word of God, or that there is such a thing as the Holy Spirit. I could no longer deny the strength of the evidence against both of those propositions .


Monday 4 July 2011

Pictures of the Chair Making Week





Making a Chair the Old Fashioned Way

Cleaving wood involves placing an axe point down on the end of a log, and smashing it with a sledge hammer. If you hit it right, and if you're lucky, you end up with a nice straight split down the length of your log. This is to produce the pieces of wood you are going to need to turn the legs of your hand made chair. Yes, it might be easier to used a table saw, or any other power cutting device, but this is chair making the traditional way – like they did it before the invention of electricity. Any way, you get a piece of wood where the grain runs straight from end to end, which gives you a lot of strength in the finished legs – useful for a chair.

This was my introduction to chair making the way it was done a hundred years ago. Beginning with logs, ending up with a Windsor style dining chair. You can tell it's hand made, which I suppose is inevitable. Part of me feels that it would be nice to be able to hand make a piece of furniture and no one be able to tell it doesn't come from Ikea.

On the other hand when something is hand made, people notice and it's nice to be able to say, with suitable modest disclaimers, 'Yes, well I did make that – a long time ago. (The bits that weren't done by the course instructor, that is.) But I'm writing this from the comforting situation of having made the chair. It felt a lot different when I and three other hopeful yet apprehensive guys watched the expert, Peter Wood, rapidly splitting logs, cutting the billets of wood into perfect cylinders with a draw knife, and then turning the result into a credible, decorative chair leg. This seemed to take about three minutes. We then proceeded to take two days, to produce four chair legs, and three of those bits that run between chair legs. (which it turns out are called stretchers. In fact it's going to be impossible to describe this activity without using some technical terms so you'll just have to live with it.)

The chair backs were going to be the type that loops over like a bow and has thin rods holding it up. We again began with a log, split off five foot lengths, and proceeded to whittle these down to something like one inch square with a draw knife. These pieces were then placed in a tube to have steam piped over them for a while, so they would be nice and flexible for bending. Pliable they may have been but it still took four of us to bend them round.

The seat is the next big task. A 2 inch thick slice is cut from the trunk of an ash tree, outlined with a saw, and then we got to hack at it for a while to try and make it seat shaped. As well as the hacking, and carving, there was a good bit of drilling holes at all kinds of odd angles for the legs, the back, and the spindles. These spindles are thin wooden rods that hold up the back. Unfortunately they are so thin that they don't go well in a pole lathe, so you have to carve them out with a draw knife, followed by a spoke shave. This is like trying to whittle a cylinder out of a square log. In fact there was a lot of that kind of thing – the bow back had to be reduced to a neat round cross-section from a very rough rectangle. To aid in the process you sit at a kind of foot operated clamp called a horse. It holds the wood while you torture it with whatever blade you have to hand.

After four and a half days we had accumulated fourteen pieces of shaped wood. Legs and stretchers turned on the pole lathe, bow backs and spindles carved with a draw knife and spoke shave. A seat scooped out with strange curved knives and shaves, and drilled at all kinds of complex angles. Each piece held its memories of difficulties, mistakes, minor triumphs, or tactful help from Peter to speed things up. As a pile of parts, not very inspiring. But then came the point where we began to assemble things together, and suddenly a new entity began to emerge.

Finally everything was glued together and the chair was right way up. The chair. It finally existed. After five days of aching muscles, unaccustomed activity, inexpert use of tools of many kinds, we each had what we had come to do. Peter had taken four men of varying dexterity, varying age, varying experience of wood working, and brought us to the finishing line together. Through an experience that moulded us into a team, drew out unsuspected skills, and forged a bond of mutual encouragement.

And you can sit on the chair.




Wednesday 8 June 2011

Having fun being church, having fun doing mission!!!

I'm writing this from an attic in Sheffield, my room in a low budget B&B! This week I have been attending 'The Pilgrimage' at St Thomas Crookes and St Thomas Philadelphia in Sheffield. This is one of the biggest and most dynamic Anglican/Baptist Churches in the country and have a fascinating approach to being Church and doing mission.
The subtitle of the week is 'Developing Missional Communities', which sounds rather a mouthful, but actually is quite simple. Groups of people who have a particular vision for mission to those around them make it their primary purpose and form a community of people to support it. Some of the ways they do mission are quite familiar and people in Whitwick, Thringstone and Swannington are already doing them. They have just found a way to keep doing stuff they enjoy and bringing people into the kingdom.
One example - a good one for a city with two universities - is that a group of students decided to reach out to their fellow students by offering to clean their communal kitchens. Anyone who has seen a shared kitchen in a house full of students will know just how disgusting they can become. So this group has been making an offer that a lot of students have found absolutely brilliant and has led to relationships and people joining the cleaning group's other activities.
So instead of having a brief but very intense - and extremely exhausting - week of mission, mission is going on in different ways the whole time. All of the good ideas that we have had at different times don't have to be left in abeyance until mission week comes around.
Different groups may have a heart for different situations and serve people around them in different ways. Similar to ways that are  part of our church programmes. The difference is that those who do those things form not just a team for that purpose, but form a small community who share life together. So they worship as a group, they socialise as a group, and they reach out to the people they feel God is calling them to care for.
Sometimes a group that exists to provide a ministry within the church, such as worship group, or mother and toddler group, women's group etc etc decided to become a missional community. We heard of one of the early groups that decided to do that and out of 30 people involved, 27 left! Later the group grew and developed in mission.
I was reminded of that time when many of Jesus' disciples left him, when the challenge became too great, and he said to the twelve - are you going to leave me as well?
This has also been a time of personal blessing for me. So thank you to all who continue to pray for me on my sabbatical. Please keep it up.

Monday 23 May 2011

The Voice of the Good Shepherd

Ever since last Autumn I've been haunted by John's Gospel Chapter 10 where Jesus talks about being the Good Shepherd and also The Gate of the Sheep. It speaks of the sheep hearing the Shepherd's voice, recognising it, following the Shepherd, avoiding other voices. For some reason when I read this in the course of Morning Prayer last year it seemed tremendously personally significant. Many of you may have had the same experience of God's word being highlighted on the page as you read. I have thought long and hard about those words since then.
       John 10:2-5
2 The man who enters by the gate is the shepherd of his sheep. 3 The watchman opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.  4 When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice.  5 But they will never follow a stranger; in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recognise a stranger's voice." 
      John 10:16-17
16 I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd.
As I mentioned in my First Sabbatical Report, this was the reading during my Sunday in Gateshead, and guess what, the Sunday Morning Communion Service in Iona Abbey had the same Gospel reading. Keep praying my sabbatical prayer.

Impressions of Iona

A week living with the Iona Community in Iona Abbey sounds like an ideal retreat. Romantic, spiritual, surrounded by awesome scenery amid some of the earliest Christian sites in the UK. Well, some of that turned out to be true, but quite a lot of it turned out to be a very different to expectations.
For one thing, the Iona Community does not live on Iona! I know it sounds crazy but it's true. But neither did I arrive and find the Abbey and Community buildings empty. The Abbey is run by resident staff members and volunteers, a number of whom are associate members of the Iona Community. We did however have the benefit of the wisdom of Ron, Iona Community member in residence.
The Iona Community is not an enclosed order, living in the Abbey and singing its songs to themselves. They deliberately live out in the world, mainly in the UK, some in Europe. Their focus is to follow Christ out in the world, resourced by the spiritual centre of Iona and the strong ethos of work for peace and justice that flow from the Community's founder George MacLeod.
I was booked in for one of the recurrent 'Gathering Weeks' which is designed to give guests a taste of community and introduce the spiritual and moral compass of Iona. So far from a retreat, the guests are expected to work. Some, the Otters team, are on the morning shift, setting out breakfast and serving the other guests, then washing up and helping the kitchen staff prepare the day's vegetables. The other teams were Puffins, lunch squad, and Seals, evening meal duty. The latter two teams also provided cleaning and various other maintenance tasks during the week.
However, all work stops for worship. Almost the whole resident 'community' of staff, volunteers and guests adjourn to the Abbey for 9am Morning Worship and 9pm Evening 'space'. These had a core structure which became familiar, but especially the evening services each had a distinctive theme and content which incorporated a call, a challenge, a response from God to our worship. OK, here you are expressing faith in Me, so what are you going to do about it? This is a characteristic of Iona Worship liturgy and songs which makes it stand out from so much of the worship of the rest of the Church. It is an aspect that I for one want to consider how to incorporate into the weekly worship of a local church.
Of course guests are not working the whole time. There are fun times - a ceilidh (Celtic song and dance) night, a guest concert night (deeply embarrassing, but a scream), a trip to Staffa and Fingal's Cave, plus much free time to explore the beauties and heritage of the island. There is additional spiritual input as well, in the form of the regular Pilgrimage taking in various locations of the Island's history and spiritual legacy. Optional talks described the life and purpose of the present day Iona Community.
I enjoyed my week. The accommodation was basic and my room mate snored, but my fellow guests were mainly Christians from all over the world and it was fascinating getting to know them. The meal tables rang with voices from Holland, South Africa, Germany, Switzerland, Australia, New Zealand, and Scots brogue as well as commonplace English. I was also personally challenged to consider how Iona's themes of community, and commitment to justice and peace, can enrich the life of an ordinary local church.